Do you understand the words that are coming out of my keyboard?

You should, because it's no longer typing like crazy! Hooray! Typing on my new keyboard makes me feel more like Carrie Bradshaw than ever! Something about the feel of the keys and the little clickety clack noises it makes...i feel my transformation with every word i type. This new keyboard is so thin and hip, i almost can't stand it! I didn't mind the old one so much, but it malfunctioned when someone spilled water all over my desk...tragic.

Went to my second funeral ever last week. Funerals are never fun, but something about them feels soothing in a weird way. I guess it just gives closure to everything, and gives people a chance to get to know the person's life. It's almost like a big party, but with alot of tears instead of cake and balloons.

Death is a strange thing. One minute you're here, the next minute you're gone. And then all that's left are memories of the life you lived, survived by family and friends. It's like your body is a wind up toy, it just tickers along, until one day someone forgets to wind you up again. Maybe it's not really like that. I don't know what it's really like.

I still remember the day my frog died. My beautiful little frog, with its hot orange belly that I got from S&J for my birthday. One day i looked in and it was dead and flat. I remember having to take it out of the tank and freaking out because it was dead. My little frog that I wasn't afraid to hold in my hand when it was alive was suddenly the scariest thing to touch now that it was dead. Funny how that is...

**ADDENDUM**

Life is a funny thing too. These events, life and death, they happen every single day, every single minute of the day...yet we're unaffected by it until it happens to us. Until we give birth, or someone we know gives birth, or someone we know dies. Sure when these things happen, it affects a lot of people but still many more are unaffected. There is a baby being born as I type right now, but I'm unaffected by it. Yet if we rewind back to July a couple decades ago, I was affected, I was being born!

Again...I don't know where I'm going with this...

Readings and Findings

Recently finished reading Persepolis 2, and was quite surprised by how much I enjoyed it. The library did not have Persepolis 1, I may just have to watch the movie instead. Now I'm on to The Fountainhead, giving to me by J, who may have made the claim that it will change my life. I guess I will find out in 727 pages. Recently found out they're making a movie of The Time Traveller's Wife...how disappointing yet intriguing at the same time. Funny thing is, while I was reading it I kept wondering what the film version would look like. Guess we'll find out this summer.

This week has been a frenzy of events hither and thither. This weekend doesn't look like it'll slow down either.

Boring post for now. More to come later.

I feel like Jesse Spano

No time? There's never any time!


Why is it that despite my unemployed hours, i feel like i still don't have enough time to do everything i want to do! WHY??

Things left unsaid.

Dear Rebecca,

I hope that somewhere out there you know I came by to see you today. I know things have been confusing for you, and you probably already can't remember who I am, but I want you to know I think about you and your family all the time. Your daughter is doing a wonderful job taking care of everything, I just don't know how she is doing it. I half expect her to break down at any moment whenever I call her, but she doesn't. And I saw her take care of you today and it just amazes me how strong she is throughout this whole process, with so many other things going on. You've done an excellent job raising her and her brothers and I told her today how great it's been to see everyone in your family come together these past few years. Today I really missed one of your strong hugs, the ones you always give me when I see you...it always amazed me how strong they were even though you're so petite. I'm sorry I left the room so abruptly today, I didn't mean to be rude, but I didn't want to cause a scene and I just wasn't prepared to see you in that state, as much as I tried to prepare myself beforehand....I really did want to come in and say hi and get a hug, or even just to hold your hand...I really hope you know that. I hope I can send this out into the ether and it will somehow get to you, and even though I'm not the praying kind, just know you are constantly in my thoughts.

SH

Robot Chicken vs Family Guy

Most of the time, i'm absolutely fine with having no cable. But there are just those times when i really wish i had certain channels. HBO for their movies, SHOWTIME for Dexter, BRAVO for Project Runway, and COMEDY CENTRAL for Adult Swim. The other night the famous Star Wars episode of the Family Guy was on. I've heard all my friends say how funny this episode was. And it was indeed. But then at the end they alluded to the fact that Robot Chicken also did a Star Wars episode. So then i looked that up online, and, it was hilarious!! I think Robot Chicken wins this round.

It's amazing how quickly time goes by when you're not working. I've been quite busy for someone who should have all the time in the world! How does that happen? But its better than nothing to do i guess. Over and out.

Babies

It's amazing how much babies resemble a combination of two people. I know, duh. But, the whole concept of it just amazes me. For some reason i've been coming into contact with babies lately. Babies of people i know. And the first thing you notice is how much they look like the mom or dad. Or even a combination of the mom and the dad. It's just something in the features of the baby. As though the separate features that resemble a parent are still...pure and untouched, it hasn't morphed into it's own thing to become an individual yet. I mean, sure, little kids and even older children up to adults may have some semblance of their parents. But it's never as obvious as babies are. Am i just driving this blatantly obvious point into the ground? Hm...

Visited the library last week. Can't believe i've been here for a year and it was only the first time i've been to this library. I just love libraries and exploring them for the first time. So peaceful and quiet. So many possibilities to check out. So many nooks and crannies to discover. Always end up checking out more books than i can handle within the checkout period. Oh well. That's why "renew" was invented, right? Right.

Last week was my semi productive week. Wasn't completely lazy, but definitely lots of down time. This week is all business. ALL BUSINESS. I suddenly have the feeling that I don't have enough time with all that i've got lined up. We'll see how it all goes...

Unemployment, Day 2

So far, so good.

I'm not losing my mind yet. Though i'm talking to myself alot more in the car. I've been trying to get alot done and have actually been quite productive. Gone to the bank, post office, did taxes, made several customer service calls, applied for unemployment...just trying to get odds and ends in order. I'm trying really hard to stick to some sort of a schedule so i'm not up reading or watching movies til 3am and not waking up til noon. But then today i thought about it, and...why not? No one's stopping me! But still...must stick to some sort of schedule, for my own sanity.

From being unemployed last time, I've learned that one spends more money when one is not making money, than when one is making money. Funny how that works. I guess you have all this free time and what better way to fill it than spend some money? So i'm also trying really hard not to do that...and of course, end up at Bed Bath and Beyond yesterday because I felt I really needed an air tight coffee canister. That is, for the trader joes coffee beans I bought the other day that was constantly emanating this wonderful coffee smell, making me want coffee whenever i passed by my kitchen, but more like 24/7. That is, coffee made from the french press i bought over the weekend, because now that i'm not getting office coffee, i must get it somewhere, so I might as well make it at home. See...see how the vicious cycle works?

So yesterday as I was checking out at BBB, I saw Sandra Oh in front of me, two 'o clock. After i discreetly stared at her to make sure it was her, i shrugged it off, because yes, she's just another human being, who cares. So as i went to check out, i noticed lady A behind the counter whispering to lady B, and staring in the direction of Sandra. I heard her whisper, "yknow,from grey's anatomy. That's my favorite show." Lady B seemed confused and finally looked up at me, and asked lady A, "HER?" I laughed, shook my head, and said, "no, HER!" and pointed my head in sandra's direction. Discreetly, of course. Lady B was still confused, but lady A and I shared a good chuckle. That's why I love LA man...the city where I can get mistaken as the OTHER asian actress.

I think as long as I don't start drinking in the afternoon, I'll be a-ok. And to prevent that from happening, I'm going to go finish the two beers left in the fridge.

Haha, just kidding.







There's only one left anyway.