So.

Haven't blogged in a while, thought I'd give it a go.

So.

I'm kind of hating my job right now.

But I love my neighborhood. Still. Tonight I walked out to the main street to meet H for dinner and there were so many things going on. The grill cheese truck, people doing yoga, people doing arts and crafts, a magician across the street. I hope people don't start finding out about my neighborhood.

I'm stuck in the quicksands of time. I think that's a lyric somewhere. I'm like those melting clocks. Melting and ticking. And sleepy.

This was a poor go, I'll do better next post.

Autumn

I couldn't get out of the shower just now. It was so warm and the water felt so nice that I just wanted to sleep in the shower. But alas, I got out, and thought, it's bath season! It's starting to get cold enough where I can take baths again. Ok, well, probably not for another month or so. But the weather's been tricky this year, so who knows. As soon as I take out my winter clothes I'm sure it'll be over 90 degrees again.

I get these heart palpitations from time to time. It really just comes and goes but the past three days or so it's been lingering. I wonder what's changed. I've also not been sleeping well. I keep waking up in the dark, thinking people are going to get me. Ghosts and what not. I wonder if my garage is haunted. But usually I wake up because I have to go to the bathroom. I think it's an old age thing too. Huh, funny, I just had this thought. You know how people are always losing sleep when they have kids because babies need to feed at all hours and wake up early? And I find that people sleep less or have insomnia the older they get. Maybe by the time I have kids, I'll be so old that I won't need to sleep very much. HA! Take that young parents. Take. THAT.

Ok, yea, I don't know.

French toast. A la mode. Sounds good, no? Hm.

Randoms

Wow, seems like everyone's slowly falling off the blog wagon.

It's just that...there's not much to blog about.

My show ended this week. And the way it ended really made me mad. Politics, policies, and other shit. I said goodbye to a few people who have been at the company longer than I. It was a sad and stressful and weird week.

Been doing the online dating thing lately, which, isn't going so well. Actually, it's not quite going at all. I feel as though I make things more difficult than it has to be. If things seem too simple, I will find a way to make it difficult. The whole thing with online dating feels like you're going shopping. Easy right? You take some tomatoes off aisle 1, some peanut butter off aisle 2. The only difference is, at the store, you pay for things and you take them home. With online dating, people say no to you. GASP. Anyway, to get to all the intricacies and annoyances of online dating will require me writing a handbook, which I'm in no mood for right now.

I tried today to buy a copy of the 2nd book to The Hunger Games, but they were out! The nerve. I'm #63 of like...152 on hold at the library. So while I wait, I decided to pick up some other books. Short stories by Road Dahl (I love this guy), Howl and other poems, About A Boy, and Life of Pi. I'm sure I won't get to them all, but I like to have choices. Also I can keep one in the car, one at home, one in my purse, etc. That way I always have reading material around. Lately I've been thinking about getting a kindle, as they seem to be more affordable these days. But 1)I'd kind of feel like a traitor to all books if I did, 2)I don't want another gadget around, 3)I really have no need for one. So the possession of a kindle may be a few years away. But the idea is slowly seeping into my head...like a tea bag, dipped in hot water.

OK.

My next big project is to get rid of my box of "stuff" that I've had since the last apartment. This box of stuff are things I don't really need but can't quite give away. So I've decided to sell them. Which might be a bigger hassle than just giving it away, but really, some of this stuff I can't imagine good will wanting. This project has been a project for the last...oh...3 years I'd say. (I wrote 4 years, but went back to change it to 3 because 4 just seemed too long to have a project in the queue. And embarrassing too.)

Tally ho.

UGH

UGH. What a day. One thing after the other.

My show was cancelled last Thursday. But it's moving to another show as a smaller segment. So they've asked me to stay on, and continue working on the segment, along with some other new things. Which is great. I still have my job. Wonderful. Awesome.
Except I'm not really into it. On Friday a friend semi offered me a month's worth of work while he's gone on vacation. When he gets back we'd switch off maybe, but technically after that I'd be out on my own, freelancing. All weekend I've thought about taking it, about the possibility of leaving a cushy job that I'm bored at to get out there in the jungle. And really, it's about time. I should've done it years ago.

So a sequence of events occured today that made me want to leave my job and take the new one more and more. So finally I get a text out to said friend, make some lunch plans for tomorrow, and follow it by telling him I'm seriously thinking about taking him up on his offer if he is. He texts back and said he offered it to someone else now. Ugh.

But then he also follows up with send me your reel and resume.

So I get home early in order to update my resume and reel which only has minor updates so shouldn't be too big of a project. WRONG. It's 1:30am, and I'm panicking that I won't have what I need by morning. This reminds me of when you stay up all night during school to finish a project and you're still working as the birds are chirping and the sun is coming out.

Ugh.

It shouldn't have been this difficult. Stupid technology. As much as technology is suppose to help people and speed things up, I'm still amazed by how much it fails me all the time. Seriously. An application that used to work, no longer works the way its suppose to. What's changed? I don't know. My internet connection? The worst it's ever been. I don't know if it's the company or if it has something to do with my apartment. I can't even make a phone call properly from my place. UGH.

I'm so annoyed right now. And sleepy. And stressed. UGH.