What the F#$*(&@!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dang nabit.......I can't sleep due to some crazy mofo winds outside that rattle my windows and roofs and walls and make me feel like i'm about to blow away at anytime. And now i'm cranky, cause these winds have been here since before 4am and i haven't been able to sleep since then. It really pisses me off, can you tell? I know, i've gone into whiny mode, but dang it....i really value my sleep. And yes, its spring break so technically i can sleep whenever i want, but its the principle!! THE PRINCIPLE!!!!!
I thought these santa anas already came and went?? Why did they come back? And why so fiercely?
AAAAAAAARGH!!!! F#*(_#)*(&%(#*$&U*_#$@*(#&*@!)*C(&#)(&*@!(K&*)@!#\!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok, back to working on my webpage. I feel like i've become a computer nerd working on this, but i'm really excited about it, and i haven't been excited about a project in a while, so just let me be excited ok?? And anyways, i don't know nearly enough about computers to even come close to being a computer nerd, so just back off.

K, now this wind has made me go into super defensive mode, leaving me to talk to and defend myself......le sigh......damn winds.
The normal SH will be back when these #@)(*$@)#$_*@#)*$@# winds leave.

Thank you, and have a nice day.

PEOPLE OF BLOGGER!

(or, at least those who read mine...)

I will be redesigning my webpage soon. It is time for change. Things to take out, things to add. If there's anything you'd like to see on my page, just let me know. But anyways, just look for that.

Last night i had a dream that i was in a room with JP, and Michael Jackson. I usually go star crazy, but for some reason, being in the same room as with the king of pop didn't faze me one bit. I think JP was going to interview him or something. But i wanted to wait around to see what kinds of ridiculous things JP would say once he came face to face with Michael. That would've been funny....hehe.

Ok, so yes, i'm done with my college career. I guess usually i would blog about it...i could blog about it...for pages and pages...but i won't. Not now. No energy for such things now.

In other news:
I just purchased 5 of the best cds ever, for cheap! Warehouse and target are great! Ben Folds, Gilberto Gil, Live, and the 2 Coldplay's. Ahhhhh..............i'm soooo happy. Those who know how i am with my cds will know how happy my purchases have made me. Whheeeeeeeeeee!

oy...
i'm "trying" to pack up some of my stuff right now so that i won't have so much to take home in 3 weeks. it's not going so well. so much stuff. to keep or not to keep?

K, so here i was, thinking that i can get a head start on packing up some of my stuff before sunday. But i just don't know where to start. So i'll just blog some more. Who knew i could accumulate so many things?




So...i guess i have nothing to blog either. I guess i'll try the packing thing again. but...what a pain. K, i think my guitar's calling me again.

I know I've blogged about this already, but, i hate not getting what i want. Or finding out i can't have something i really want. It makes me pout, and i go on and on about it. Sometimes i see something i want, and i'm like, i want that, that would be nice to have. But i get over it. Other times, i see something i want, or something that someone else has that i really want, but can't have, and for some reason it consumes me, i think about it for days and days, thinking of the great things i would and could do if i actually got what i want. I hate when i get into this 2nd level of "want." It's just really irritating for me, and i hate that i'm so driven towards having this "want" i can't have. Oy. Drives me nuts.

WAR! (huh!....hooha!) WHAT IS IT GOOD FOR?? Absolutely nothing, say it again!

Sigh. War.

In other news, i just turned in my last paper of my college career. Still have a final on friday, but...that one's a bit sketchy. Papers are hard. I don't see how missy does it. She just cranked out a paper this morning, and is off to write another one. She's like some sort of paper writing machine...you crank her arm, give it a good turn, and out comes a beautifully typed paper, stapled and everything. How do you do it missy!?!? And cady too! She was also a paper machine this quarter. It seemed like she had a paper to write every night. Damn papers.

Kristin doesn't think i can beat her at an eating contest. She doesn't even want to try it. I mean, yes, i know Kmori is an incredible eating machine (geez, are all my roommates machines??), that i don't doubt. I dare not. But, all i'm saying is that i should be given a chance to prove my abilities. I think, with the right type of food at the right time (hungry time that is), there may be a chance that i can become as great as Kmori. If we had the exact same amount of a kind of food, there might be a chance that i can beat her. That's been my excuse so far. Our food portions haven't been equal. Yea, she may go back for seconds and thirds, but how much does she put on her plate?? Possibly not as much as I? Possibly?? What should we eat though? Not ribs or hotdogs, those are out. If you have a suggestion, let me know. All i'm saying is: give SH a chance.

Seeing how i didn't get very much sleep last night due to paper writing, i should be taking a nap. But...i miss my guitar, and i think it misses me, and when....oh, there it goes. My guitar is calling me again. It's like we're on the same wave length, it knows when i'm thinking about it. So folks, until next time, peace out.

Hey!
What are you doing reading my blog! Shouldn't you be studying for finals?? Yea, i'm talking to you!

Don't wanna study anymore, you say? Well then get over here and write my paper for me!

I have 12 hours to write 7 more pages. To most people, thats plenty of time. To me, not nearly enough. SIgh.................
Will you write my paper for me puh-lease????!!!!!!!!!!!

Thanks to garrett who reminded me of the hipness that i lack. He told me some 50cent songs to download, and frankly, i find them a bit boring and monotonous. I am soooo not cool.

In other news, meeting new people is fun! Today I met 2 new people, Sean at muirwoods, and Marcus at dinner, who were both pretty cool. Sean came in with this cool gourd with tea in it and was sipping out of a metal straw with a strainer at the end. It was the coolest thing i've ever seen. He said it was an argentina thing. I forgot what its called now, but if anyone knows what i'm talking about, please let me know, and also where to get one.

In other other news, i found out that Ali has a second cousin who resembles Natalie Portman, who is persian but lives in norway who just won Ms. Latin in Spain? I think he wants her, so i reminded him that more and more people are marrying even their first cousins now. Tee hee.

ok, call me stupid, call me out of touch with whats hip with the youngsters these days, but just call me, and let me know who this fifty cent character is. what does he sing, and why is he so popular? and why 50 cents and not...I dunno..75?

and damn whats wrong with the ataris website? why does it always freeze my computer when i try to go there? it's done it like 5 times already. does it do that to anyone else?

no one is blogging, due to finals.

my paper is still going nowhere, thanks to monty who distracted me all day. but i guess its my fault for trying to type when he's right there in front of me. silly me...

Starbucks has a table in front of their huge window which provides instant access to the world outside. Today I sat there watching the people scurry hither and thither under the downpour like little mice. Windows are cool.

I think i blogged about regrets once, and i can't remember if i said i had any or not. But i do have one now that my college career is over, and that is not taking violin lessons. I went to Paiviki, Janos' wife, to get my violin adjusted, and she is the nicest woman ever. And i sat there talking to her, wondering why i didn't take lessons with her, or even janos, sooner. And now i can't anymore, and it really pisses me off because i missed the opportunity. Arg...

Once again, it is paper writing time. You know what that means? That means i'll be bloggin alot instead of writing my paper. Hahaha. It's funny cause its twuuueeee.

In other news, my roommate kristin tried to poison me last night. Some roommate.

Letters.

Dear Cady,
Thanks for your kind blog.
You rock!
Best regards,
Your roommate.

Dear Jen,
Where have YOU been?
Why haven't I seen YOU around?
Love,
Your lover.

Dear Missy,
HAPPY FANTABULOUS BIRTHDAY!
Missy rocks!
warmest wishes,
Your younger roommate.

Dear Kristin,
I think you should keep your babies and let them grow up healthy and happy.
Haha.
yours truly,
The girl next door.

Dear Eph,
Have you ever considered a mullet?
Well don't.
sincerely,
me.

And thats it for SH's mailbag. come back next time!

i am nervous about tomorrow night.
but by this time tomorrow night, it'll all be over. forever. good thing or bad?

Sometimes you just get to this point where the every day things around you have little importance. Like, the coffee we drink, or worrying about grades, or the people that won't walk faster across the street you want to cross. You stop and you think that there's so much more going on in the world, in the realm of nature and its complexities. So many things that go on that you don't know about, and will never know about. Events occuring around the world (and i'm not talking about the impending war) that can't be understood. Spirituality. Pi (and i'm not talking about the apple kind, but the kind that goes on forever and ever). Formation of languages. Thoughts going on in the minds of geniuses that we will never be able to grasp. Moments of love so intense thats going on right this second all the way across the world. Or maybe even next door. And i'm not talking about sex. I'm talking about passion, truth, desires for the other person....love in the traditional sense. Love that you can't possibly imagine because you've never really experienced it, even if you've had 10 girlfriends, or even if you're married. You stop and think about these things, and all of a sudden, other things don't seem so important anymore.

Let the ringing begin!

I went to a bar with jen tonight (i know, sunday night!! can i be cool now, puh lease??) to watch this band. And now my ears are ringing. Last time it didn't stop for three days. We'll see how long it'll go for this time. Chris, the guitarist, was amazing. He rocks out like a true guitarist....like a bad mofo. We have a class together, and he told me he's taken classes with Jason 3 times. 3 times!! I thought I loved jason, but this guy really really loves Jason! And maya, one of the singers ...such a pretty voice!
Le sigh....i wanna be a band whore, dammit!

I had a dream last night. It was my birthday, and sara surprised me all the way from OC with...Will Ferrell! Random, i know, but isn't that the way dreams go? But that wasn't the best part. After Will appeared behind sara, he was really excited, cause right then, Martin Scorcese appeared from behind Will! And as if Will knew i was going to say this, we both said in unison, "Oh my god it's Martin Scorcese!!" I was screaming like a little girl. And marty said his hellos and wished me a happy bday. It turns out sara had them for the day (for whatever reason, i don't know) and asked if they could come wish me happy bday in san diego. And ol marty had some business down here anyways so he came. But then he had to leave right away. I wanted him to stay til the next day so i could take him to class and show JP that marty and i were old buds. But he had to leave. I think it was to see JP anyways.
Yeah..random dream.

I think thats it. Other than,
taka taka taka taka taka taka takaaaaaaaaaaa

Wahaha.....

The blog queen that i am, i got the final roommate to join the blogwagon. Whoooo! You can now go inside Missy's brain right here. Haha, gotcha there. Go here. Or just look for her link to your lower left. No, the other left. Right.

Yes E, blogs discussing other blogs are fun.
What's not fun is when you go visit a blog that has not been updated in the past day or two...ahem.

Right now i have no desire to do anything. Nothing at all when really, there is so much to be done. I'm just going through my music collection and just listening. Right now it's Coldplay. Ah...so soothing. I just want to go veg on my bed and be surrounded by chris martin crooning me to sleep. Ah.....

How did i get so good at doing nothing?

I want to be a band whore.

I really do. Fox should come out with a show called "I want to be a band whore." People would watch that. I would try to go on that. Fox has done everything, why haven't they done this?? It'd be like american idol.......but better. With more talent. not to say that people on american idol don't have talent...dot dot dot...
Although i don't know if they can use the word "whore" on tv. But then again, we ARE talking about Fox, so nevermind.

JP totally embarrassed me today in class cause my cell phone went off. He asked to speak to the caller, and when i said i already hung up, he told me to call them back. It turned out to be Jen, but i thought it was son, so he ended up calling Son back, but he didn't pick up, which was a good thing. Although i wonder what JP would have said. I was really worried that he would make the caller cry. Oh that jp is so funny. Silly mongoose.

hahaha.....i just had a conversation with christine regarding blogs:

me: i on the other hand.......like to exhibit my lameassness
me: so everyone else can feel like they're normal compared to me
me: so really, i'm doing this for the good of the people
her: how altruistic of you
me: i know i know....i'm too much

see what i do for you people? see??

over and out.

Wheel!......................Of!.......................FORTUNE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wheel of Fortune is gonna be at our school tomorrow. Alot of things like this come to our school, and i've never really had an urge to be a part of it.....UNTIL NOW! It's wheel of fortune! Pat and Vanna!! I totally want to be a contestant and win some money, especially since i'll be unemployed in the future. Wahhhh. But I mean, all i'd have to do is guess some letters, buy some vowels, spin a wheel, clap my hands and say "big money, big money!!" right? That would be great.

The problem with that is i might be missing jason's class. And since i always sit in the front, he might know that i'm not there. I won't get to hear him sing his songs. I won't get to see him in his oversized sports jacket that makes him look like a little kid wearing his dad's clothes....hehe. And it'd be too unsettling to miss class, especially his class. And especially when we'll find out who won Carnival tomorrow. But i guess i can look that up myself. Maybe i can go have a chat with him during office hours. Explain to him that i missed class for a chance at fame and FORTUNE! Yes. He just might go for it...

dear internet void. stop.

jen's a trooper.

she's giving up coffee for lent...for the both of us. :-)

in other news: i think i'm addicted to movies. or rather, dvds. or rather, the thought of buying dvds. hehe....these are the things that go on in my head. i think of all the wonderful dvds i can buy when i have all the money in the world. i mean, not only would they be great movies, they'd be great movies that i'll have in my possession! well, the ones in my collection will be great at least. my theory is that by possessing great movies in my collection, somehow i can be part of that greatness too. or at least experience it over and over again.

there are too many good movies out there. and too many that i haven't seen. too many i don't understand. too many i love. what is it with movies? we can get into a whole conversation about this....but i'm tired of typing.

stop.

Many things to blog about, but i don't know if i'll blog them all.

First of all, I still have a slight ringing in my ear. More than 24 hours later! Is this normal?

Second, I saw the most beautiful film today called Central Station. It sucks that i had to watch it in the library, trying to hide myself at my little viewing station cause i was sitting across from some random guy i didn't know, getting all teary. But you guys definitely have to see this movie. This and Cinema Paradiso. Mmmm....both just wonderful.

Third, while at the trio concert tonight, i was thinking how cool it would be to play well, or even play the cello... or better yet, play the cello well, like yoyo ma! (no, not yo mama, yoyo ma!) Christine and i had a conversation about performing, and how frightening it is. And all of it just drives me further away from being Gwen Stefani. But then again, being in a band, you are playing with other people, so you're not completely by yourself, which wouldn't be so bad right?

Fourth, i had a really unsatisfying breakfast burrito at El Cotixan's, which seemed like the happening place to be last night. Not that it wasn't good, it just wasn't what i was expecting. So, just a forewarning for anyone out there who might consider ordering a breakfast burrito at El Coti: think about it. Hard.
However, to counteract that bad experience, i had some really good korean food tonight with christine over stimulating and interesting conversation, so i guess that makes up for the disappointing burrito.

Fifth, i hate not getting what i want. And yes, i feel like i'm reverting back to my elementary school days when i would whine and complain about such things, but, wouldn't you agree? Not getting what you want just really sucks. But i'm not talking about the materials things in life (even though i want those too), but i'm talking about other things you can't help or have no control of. And i realize, yea, sometimes theres just not much you can do about things beyond your control, but dammit, it still sucks nonetheless. And when i say this, i'm referring to so many things...

Sixth, i'm on the search for a record player. {{wicky wicky}} not necessarily a turning table (i've given up on that for the moment due to lack of space), but just a record player to play records on. if anyone knows where i can get one for cheap, or have one you'd like to get rid of, please contact me immediately.

Seventh, i'd like to give a shoutout to ken, who probably doesn't read my blogs anyways (but then again, who does!), for reminding me that i have a copy of cool edit pro. ah.......theres so much more i can do now. much love yo.

Eighth, its 9th week.....oh how the weeks are dwindling down.

Nineth, une de choses que j'ai dit plus tot au sujet de ne pas obtenir ce que je veux, est: ne peux parler bien en francais. hier, j'ai entendue deux personnes qui a parlent en francais, et j'etais tres jaloux. je pense que je regarderais plus films en francais. peut etre les films m'aiderais? et aussi, simplement, il faut que je viens(?) au France. oui.

Tenth: i really have no tenth, i just want to make this an even 10 list.

Over and out.

my ears are still ringing....is that suppose to happen?

i woke up to the tune of Rosemary in my head this morning....oy. And then proceeded to hear the ringing in my ear. Double oy.

so after all my whining and complaining, i did get to see the queens tonight after all. christine and i went after rehearsal, and made it. they were pretty cool. not exactly my type of music, but cool nonetheless. i was watching the drum player and just thinking how cool it would be to play the drums like he was. hard and fast. there was just so much energy put on the drum....i'm surprised that drumsticks don't break more often. the guitarists were cool too...fast fingers. i wished that my fingers moved as fast. i wish i was just a better guitarist. i love the guitar, i really do. i just need to get better at it though. oh, but i will. you'll see. you and gwen and yo mamas will all see!!!!! (no, not yoyo ma, yo mama!) when i become a rock star, you guys can all tell your friends, "i read her blog back when."
hehe.
its late, i'm off to bed.