A slow panic set in today as I paid some bills and looked at my depleting account. The job I was suppose to start next week got postponed another week, and from talking to a coworker, it sounds like it's going to be a nightmare. It's just making me antsy because I want this job behind me so I can find something more fulfilling. But for now it'll pay the bills, so I can't really complain. But I probably will. It's just so easy to spend money you don't have when you have so much time on your hands.
But when you have time on your hands, cooking suddenly doesn't seem so time consuming (except when you're starving). I think I've made and eaten most of my meals at home this week, which I haven't done in a while. I've made three tasty recipes which makes me feel like an accomplished woman with gloves. It's also making me eat less (most of the time), so I can shrink the monster in my stomach back to pre-holiday gorging needs. It'll be too bad when I won't be able to keep this up when I start working. But I'm hoping my growing list of tasty recipes will help with some decision making at least. It's amazing that my job consists of making thousands of decisions but when it comes to what I want to eat, I can never decide.
A friend said to me today that 2012 is the year to take risks. I thought, heck, why not, I'm already 30, unemployed, I have nothing to lose. And also, the world is supposedly ending, so what better year to start taking risks right? I would like to take the jump, but I still feel like I have some preparations to make before the jump. But then again, is anyone ever prepared for risk taking? I guess it wouldn't be considered a risk then, if you're prepared.
I did apply for a job yesterday in NY. I guess that was some sort of a risk. But it was such a long shot of a thing that not doing it would've seemed lazy. I guess I'm just trying to be open to whatever opportunities are out there. Except, when I thought about how much of a long shot it was again this morning, along with my depleting account, I got somewhat discouraged and depressed at my upcoming prospects.
I'm hoping things will work themselves out, like they usually seem to...eventually.
14 hours ago
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Looks like I should be wrapped up with work sometime in a few hours and back towards home late tonight and home by mid-day tomorrow.
I'll have over a week until school starts - I haven't been in school in a year - and no huge plans, even though I have some things to do.
And it doesn't sound like you've got much planned, getting delayed and all. Wanna hang out? Do some cooking together?
The NY prospect sounds intriguing whether it comes to fruition or not. Just think, you could wake every morning and say, "Helloooo, New Jersey!"
I saw a quote somewhere that said, "I know the world won't end in 2012, because Marty McFly travels to 2015."
I still encourage the risk taking though! Sounds like fun, except as it pertains to Brits.
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